Endearment

Okay, I admit it.

I am in love.

According to Dictionary.com, LOVE is..

1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?
6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.
7. sexual intercourse; copulation.
8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.
9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.
10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.
11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.
12. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.
13. Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.
14. a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.–verb (used with object)
15. to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.
16. to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).
17. to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music.
18. to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.
19. to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.
20. to have sexual intercourse with.
21.to have love or affection for another person; be in love.—Verb phrase
22.love up, to hug and cuddle: She loves him up every chance she gets. —Idioms
23.for love,
a.out of affection or liking; for pleasure.
b.without compensation; gratuitously: He took care of the poor for love.
24.for the love of, in consideration of; for the sake of: For the love of mercy, stop that noise.
25.in love, infused with or feeling deep affection or passion: a youth always in love.
26.in love with, feeling deep affection or passion for (a person, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of: in love with the girl next door; in love with one's work.
27.make love,
a.to embrace and kiss as lovers.
b.to engage in sexual activity.
28.no love lost, dislike; animosity: There was no love lost between the two brothers.


Hm.
That's no help. How about answers.com...


A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
Sexual passion.
Sexual intercourse.
A love affair.
An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.
A strong predilection or enthusiasm: a love of language.
The object of such an enthusiasm: The outdoors is her greatest love.
Love Mythology. Eros or Cupid.
often Love Christianity. Charity.
Sports. A zero score in tennis.


I must be insane.
If this is what love is... then maybe it's not my sickness.

Nitfrig:

...is when my muscles melt away from my body and I no longer have control over my functions.
...is when your smile makes me want to cry and drown in my puddle of happiness with you.
...is when I am hypnotized by your eyes, and am willing to do anything you ask.
...is touching your skin and never wanting to touch anything else.
...is staring at the sky and knowing you are looking at it too, wherever you are.
...is dreaming of you every night, wishing you were next to me.
...is the anxiety I feel for the next phone call, text, or message I get from you.
...is arguing about who cares about the other more.
...is still wanting to give you foot massages even though you never let me.
...is the tightness I get in my gut when you giggle.
...is playing questions from sundown to sunrise.
...is telling stories in a bathtub about our childhood.
...is wanting to be away from everyone and everything all the time.
...is when dissatisfaction feels milleniums from my inner being.
...is when sickness won't even keep me from you.
...is wanting to protect you, but knowing you should experience everything yourself.
...is missing you even when you are right next to me.

We invented our own kind of love, dear.

Someday, I will wake up. You will be right there next to me. I can fall asleep the next night, and you will be there again. We can relearn how to share. We can play house. We can experience everything over again.
Again.
And again.
Over and over.

Every time I see the moon, I think of you.
And the sun.
And the clouds.

...every time.

I nitfrig you.